Today was my first official day of school at LDSBC. I feel quite at home in that little place. I've never studied at a CES school before and I must say that it's a wonderful change. I love that each class starts with a prayer to bring the Spirit. I love that scriptures and conference talks are often quoted and applied throughout class. I love that I'm surrounded by people who share my beliefs and passion for learning.
But I think what I love most of all is my field of study. Ever since I can remember, all I've wanted to do is create things. Whether it was creating movement with my body to music, doodling on scratch paper, forming melodies with piano keys and guitar strings, or crafting wall hangings for my bedroom, I've always wanted to create. I love the idea of forming something meaningful out of nothing and making it my own. Creating allows me to put my personality into the objects around me. It helps me make a mark on the world. I am so happy to be able to go to design school. Just being able to say that I am a design student makes me so excited because it means I can create every single day.
Elder Uchtdorf's talk titled "Happiness, Your Hertiage" was brought up in class today and I absolutely loved it. He said,
"The desire to create is one of the deepest yearnings of the human soul. No matter our talents, education, backgrounds, or abilities, we each have an inherent wish to create something that did not exist before. Everyone can create. You don’t need money, position, or influence in order to create something of substance or beauty. Creation brings deep satisfaction and fulfillment. We develop ourselves and others when we take unorganized matter into our hands and mold it into something of beauty... The more you trust and rely upon the Spirit, the greater your capacity to create. That is your opportunity in this life and your destiny in the life to come. Sisters, trust and rely on the Spirit. As you take the normal opportunities of your daily life and create something of beauty and helpfulness, you improve not only the world around you but also the world within you."
Of all the things I love to create, my deepest desire is to create life. There is nothing I want more than to be a mother, to have a family of my own someday. That was a big part of my decision to get a degree in interior design--the fact that it's a career I can have while being a mother. And I know that the things I learn in the next two years of school will help me become a better wife and mother, and a better creator.
After all, a creator is what I was meant to be.