9.16.2015

Meant To Create.


Today was my first official day of school at LDSBC. I feel quite at home in that little place. I've never studied at a CES school before and I must say that it's a wonderful change. I love that each class starts with a prayer to bring the Spirit. I love that scriptures and conference talks are often quoted and applied throughout class. I love that I'm surrounded by people who share my beliefs and passion for learning. 

But I think what I love most of all is my field of study. Ever since I can remember, all I've wanted to do is create things. Whether it was creating movement with my body to music, doodling on scratch paper, forming melodies with piano keys and guitar strings, or crafting wall hangings for my bedroom, I've always wanted to create. I love the idea of forming something meaningful out of nothing and making it my own. Creating allows me to put my personality into the objects around me. It helps me make a mark on the world. I am so happy to be able to go to design school. Just being able to say that I am a design student makes me so excited because it means I can create every single day. 

Elder Uchtdorf's talk titled "Happiness, Your Hertiage" was brought up in class today and I absolutely loved it. He said,

"The desire to create is one of the deepest yearnings of the human soul. No matter our talents, education, backgrounds, or abilities, we each have an inherent wish to create something that did not exist before. Everyone can create. You don’t need money, position, or influence in order to create something of substance or beauty. Creation brings deep satisfaction and fulfillment. We develop ourselves and others when we take unorganized matter into our hands and mold it into something of beauty... The more you trust and rely upon the Spirit, the greater your capacity to create. That is your opportunity in this life and your destiny in the life to come. Sisters, trust and rely on the Spirit. As you take the normal opportunities of your daily life and create something of beauty and helpfulness, you improve not only the world around you but also the world within you."


Of all the things I love to create, my deepest desire is to create life. There is nothing I want more than to be a mother, to have a family of my own someday. That was a big part of my decision to get a degree in interior design--the fact that it's a career I can have while being a mother. And I know that the things I learn in the next two years of school will help me become a better wife and mother, and a better creator. 


After all, a creator is what I was meant to be.

Yours Truly,

Jillian



8.06.2015

It's Funny How Things Work Out.















You know those moments in life when you feel completely full to the brim? Not full like you've just eaten a large meal, but full like you're overcome with amazement, love, peace, gratitude, and hope. You know those kind of moments? Well this summer has been overflowing with them.

Sometimes feelings are too complex to adequately describe with just words. Those kind of feelings come to me when I stand on the tippy top of a mountain and watch the sun wake up over the valley of this beautiful place I call home. They happen when I email back and forth with a best friend of 11 years who is serving the Lord in Brazil. They hit me when I laugh, talk, eat, and explore with my family every Sunday. I feel them when I stand where the end of my sandals kiss the shoreline of a pond filled with memories. And I feel them when I stand in the crowd, singing along at the top of my lungs to my favorite Provo-born indie rock band as little gold pieces of paper fall from the sky.

It's moments like these that give me that "everything is going to be okay" feeling. They remind me there's more to life than getting good grades, making money, and being successful. Although those things are important, other things should come first. Life is about being kind, taking risks, living in the moment, being adventurous and spontaneous, falling in love, and appreciating the gifts that God has given us. Life is about becoming the best version of yourself that you can be. It's about FAMILY -- immediate family and the generations that follow you. Life is about doing what makes you happy -- really, truly happy.

For me, the greatest happiness comes when I am living the gospel and keeping a close relationship with my Savior, Jesus Christ. I find when I do that, things always work out.  Even when I feel like I'm drowning in my worries and responsibilities, I can trust that things will work out.

I can trust in Him.

Yours Truly,

Jillian.

6.24.2015

Just Learning How to Adult.

^Throwback to summer 2013. Sure do miss this girl. Two and a half months, people.

//Summer is funny as an adult. It's definitely different from the lazy, carefree, pre-high-school-graduation summers I'm used to. I work pretty much full time, and when I'm not working, I'm running errands and doing other boring adult things that I couldn't do because I was at work. It's a paaarrrtttyyy, let me tell ya. I like to squeeze in some fun activities when I can, though. For example, I hiked up to the Spanish Fork hot pots with my siblings at 10 pm, finally returning home at 4 am. Not an ideal situation when you have to go to work in the morning, but who needs sleep? We can sleep when we're dead, right? That's what I always say.

//You guys. I finally got a queen size bed. I know, I know. I'm twenty years old and have never slept in anything bigger than a twin. But I am happy to say that I can at long last sleep with my limbs spread out in all directions. SO PUMPED.

//I've officially been accepted into the Interior Design program at LDSBC. My first round of fall classes will include Intro to ID, Drafting, Color Theory, and Principles of Design. HOW FUN DOES THAT SOUND THO. This major is so perfect for me. I am so excited. I went up to my sister's house last week to help her decorate her new apartment and I was literally giddy the whole day. She thinks I did her a favor, but the truth is, I was having so much fun. My mom is also having me redecorate her kitchen this summer, too. Oh happy day!

//Speaking of adult things, I'm getting a new car soon! Like I'll be taking out a real LOAN and having my dad COSIGN so I can start building CREDIT. Those are big fat adult words right there.

//I haven't been on vacation for like over 3 years now and I am in serious need. Someone please take me to California so I can do yoga on the beach because I've always wanted to do that. But really... who wants to go? LEGGO.

//I will always and forever be baffled by the concept of time. I just don't understand it. Like, how is it that a single day can feel like a millions years, but then you blink once and it's already June of 2015? Me no understand. I keep thinking, "I'm still young. I've got tons of time." But that's not really true, is it? Because the older I get, the faster times seems to pass by. And sometimes I really want time to pass by quickly, but then other times I'm just like STAHP. Time is so precious. Each second that goes by is a second you can never get back. We have to make the most of everyday.

//Even though I get overwhelmed at times, I do really love this stage of life I am in. I know that the decade ahead of me is full of scary things like big decisions, transitions, a whole lot of firsts, and more adult words entering my regular vocabulary, but I am excited. I am excited to see where life takes me and who I become. So far life has been pretty exceptional, so I gonna go ahead and say BRING IT, FUTURE.

Hope your summer is going wonderfully. Remember to drink lots of water and wear sunscreen. 

Yours Truly,

Jillian.







5.02.2015

Happy List: 2


From my daily life:
Completing my second and final year at UVU// My new hair// Clothes shopping with my brother// SUNSHINE// Listening to General Conference talks while painting my nails// Binge-watching One Tree Hill on Netflix // Almond Milk// Realizing how soon all my friends will be home from their missions// Writing a missionary I've never met before// The Dashboard Confessional Pandora station (such an amazing throwback)// My sizable tax return (thank you, college tuition)// These banana oat cookies// Watching Zoella and Alfie's vlogs// The Puppy Barn// Turkey and spinach paninis// Getting a 94 on my final business report that I put too many hours into to count// Spring cleaning and decluttering (totally not a real word)//

From the internet:
This article about loving your body// This video of a puppy with hiccups// This video that makes me even more excited to be a mom than I already am//

Funny things people have said:
My dad: "Why do people always try to feed me tomato butts? Who wants to eat a tomato butt?"

What makes you happy?

Yours Truly,

Jillian

4.26.2015

Chopped.





Never in my life did I think I would choose chop my hair again. Truth is, I'd been growing it out for about six years and, in that course of time, become quite attached. I wasn't like super emotionally attached to the point of sobbing when it gets cut, but the plethora of long, thick, brown hair that surrounded my face gave me a sense of confidence and security that I'm not sure I can explain. Despite the constant tangles, unintentional dipping of it into various foods, closing it in far too many car doors and windows, fear of being strangled by it in my sleep, and the dreaded wind + lip gloss combination, I loved my hair. A lot.

But I needed a change.

I've always secretly wanted to donate my hair, but had never mustered the courage to do so until a few months ago. And since then, I have been really really excited about it. I want to give my hair to someone who needs it. Also, the idea of cutting such a massive amount of hair off my head and just throwing it away makes me cringe.

We ended up taking about 11 inches off, which is a lot of hair. It is definitely shorter than I thought it was going to be, but I like it. We also added some red and purple into it, which I really love. It's super different, but I needed something new. And now my head feels so much lighter.

Yours Truly,

Jillian.

4.05.2015

All Glory To His Name.


First off, I just want to say Happy Easter to all of you. Easter has always been one of my favorite holidays. I'm so grateful for my Savior, Jesus Christ. I know He lives. He knows, understands, and loves each of us perfectly. Because He lives, we can all return to live with Him and The Father someday. Oh sweet, the joy this sentence gives: I know that my Redeemer lives!

I can't even begin to express just how much I've needed this break from the world. With Easter and General Conference this weekend, followed by an entire week of Spring Break, I'm not sure it can get any better. And the timing is perfect.

Lately I've been feeling a little overwhelmed with my busy life. Sometimes I feel like I am running too fast for my legs to handle and one of these days I'm going to trip over my shoe lace and eat cement. I have always tried to live life to the fullest, to challenge myself and do all that I can do. But for now, I need some time to relax, breathe, and clear my head a bit. I'd also really like to lay out in the sun because I haven't done that in like 8 months. Dear psycho Utah weather: please be sunny at least one day this week.

May your Easter be filled with love, sunshine, family, yummy food, and remembrance of the Savior. I'm sure you've all seen this video by now, but honestly I can't get enough of it. So if you'd like to watch it again, here ya go :). #BecauseHeLives





Yours Truly,

Jillian

2.28.2015

Guilt-Free Brownies.


The fact that I have a major sweet tooth is no secret. I crave baked goods, in particular. You know--cookies, donuts, muffins, brownies. As of late I have been trying to cut back my sugar intake (because in all reality, quitting cold turkey has never been in the cards for me) which has resulted in a new obsession with healthier alternatives.

Thanks to Pinterest, I found this recipe for delicious dark chocolate brownies that come out to about 40 calories a piece. That's right, 40. They are also sugar-free, gluten-free, and low-fat. And I am telling you, they are so good. This is not one of those healthy recipes that sounds yummy but ends up tasting like grass. These brownies are for real, really, truly delicious. So how about I stop blabbing and get on to the recipe? Ok.

What you'll need:

1 cup rolled oats
1 cup cocoa
3/4 cup Stevia
1 1/2 cups vanilla greek yogurt
1/2 tsp salt
2 tsp baking powder
1/2 cup vanilla almond milk
2 eggs

*The main reason I really wanted to try this recipe was because I was familiar with all the ingredients. There weren't any weird health foods that I had never heard of before. I liked that.

Directions: Preheat oven to 400 degrees F. Blend oats in a food processor until flour-like. Add all the ingredients in a bowl, mix, and pour into a greased 13x9 baking pan. Bake for 30 minutes.

It's that easy, friends. I finished mine off with a PB2 spread and some fresh fruit.Yum.



Yours Truly,

Jillian

1.26.2015

Goodbye, Teens.





That's right. Now that I'm a big bad 20-year-old, I get my very own zombie apocalypse survival kit. This bad boy is equipped with a freakin' sick knuckle grip knife, 25 shotgun shells, a flashlight, a survival guide and a hardcore metal case to put in all in. Massive thanks to my cousin, who got me addicted to the Walking Dead in the first place, for putting this amazing thing together. Now all I need is a friend with a shotgun.....

I had such a wonderful birthday. I couldn't have asked for a better day or for better friends and family. It feels good to be 20.

Your Truly,

Jillian

P.S. My sister made the cutest birthday post for me here. I love it so much.